A
Letter To My Husband
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Hi
Hon, it has been nine months to the day since you
left us and I still am waiting for you to come
home to us.I try to understand why you, like so many
others, were so violently taken from us, but I don’t
think that anything will ever come close to helping
me understand why I will never be able to hold you
in my arms again.
Meeting at the water cooler at work thirty-five years ago was the best thing
that ever happened to me. It
just took one date for us to know that we were meant for each other and six
months later we were engaged.
Our
families were very happy for us. Your mom, who became
a widow at a young age, took care of you alone since you were
seven years old. You were a great son and always felt
responsible for your mom and she loved you for it. You
took her on many family vacations before and after we were
married. She adored Ronnie and Robert but, unfortunately,
she wasn’t here to love her granddaughter, your princess, Lauren.
You were like another son to my parents. My
brother never minded sharing the honor for, to him,
you were like a brother. His family, as well
as so many of our close friends try to cope with their
loss while, at the same time, are a constant support
system to me and the children. They try to hide
their grief but I see it in their eyes every time they
look at me. I thank God for all of them each
and every day. You gave me three
beautiful children. They are so special in their
own way. They each have a part of you that I
will treasure always. They are my strength even
though I wish that I could be stronger for them. You
truly loved being their dad and never once put your
happiness before theirs. Lauren’s new job is
just what you would have wanted for her. Robert
is still following his dream and, by the way, moving
for the fourth time in four years to yet again another
apartment! He’ll surely miss your support. Ronnie
is settling into being a happily married man. They
all wish that their children would have been able to
have the opportunity to feel the love of their grandpa. Lauren
and Robert will not have the advantage that Ronnie
and Diane had in planning their wedding. Your
opinions meant so much to the both of them. We went
through with the wedding because we know that that
is what you would have wanted us to do. It
was a beautiful wedding. By the way, hon, you
were right about the bubbles… They
tell me that I have to try and make a new life for
myself. I loved the life that I had with you
and that is all I will ever want. We
will always keep your memory alive.
